You need to take a step back and relax man. Take a breath, go for a walk, go do something. Just remember to not let them suck you into a fight. Just go silent and remove yourself from the situation. I have a VERY hard time doing that as well. I would rather fight just to be right than shut up when I should be shutting up. I have done a much better job of it and things have been calm lately.

Stop thinking of the future. Think of RIGHT NOW and what you are going to do now to get yourself back on track with DB, GAL and 180. Take note of your actions that led up to the fight and make sure you don't repeat them. PMA man. Law of Attraction. YOU WILL GET THROUGH THIS.

M:16
T:21
H(me) 38
WW: 38
S11 D16 D19
Red Flags of A: March 2018
ILYBNILWY: August 4, 2018
Moved out of MBR: September 24, 2018
BD/Confirmation of A: October 31, 2018
D Filed: March 27, 2019