Milestones of Moving On (?)

[TJT]

One other update for today. I did in fact approve the papers to be filed.

Then I took the dog on a long walk and to play ball for a little bit.

I thought a lot during this time. I thought about if others would think I "gave up" on my marriage. But DV, the conversation happening on your thread right now is exactly where I feel like I'm at/getting to. My values are transcending my feelings, and it's hard, but I know it's the best thing.

Also, I'm still terrified of this and trying my best not to pretend I'm not.

There are SO many things going through my mind in terms of what will happen when I tell H and all the things I WANT to say, but am actively convincing myself not to, or even when I tell anyone else. But I am being super compassionate with myself because I really do feel like I've done the best I can. I didn't think I would go to D this quick, but he's done more and more things to exacerbate the situation. As we keep saying over and over, it doesn't mean I have to be done with him for the rest of my life. I just have to do this for me now, and no matter how you look at it, THIS marriage is certainly dead.

SoTorn - thanks for sharing your experience. I hope it will be as easy for me as a woman to do something like that, in terms of finding men who are okay with "just being friendly".