From the other side (#10)

[SBJ]

Journaling...I have been absent in writing, but have been following several of my marathon buddies here.

Christmas was interesting for sure. I was invited, yet again, by her parents (divorced) to each of their Christmas parties as well as to dinner at her sisters house on Christmas Eve. All of the parties were enjoyable and I was even able to visit with the W for a little bit. My oldest and I went to her house Christmas morning to open gifts and have breakfast before driving to Houston to one of my brothers homes for my families Christmas party. Whether it is proper DB or not, I did invite her to join us, but it was refused due to her already having plans. I knew that she would turn that down, but I had to ask. I know that it is a year away, but I don't know if I can continue to do joint Christmas things with her again. While it is great to have that time together, it is also emotionally draining.

The holidays are great for so many reasons, but they truly stink for others. I think that I am blessed that I have so many friends, family and extended family that want to spend time with us during the holidays, but the loneliness weighs heaviest for me from Halloween thru New Years. I guess it is because that last quarter is usually the most family oriented time of the year.

I am so grateful that we have this safe place to let go of some things that are weighing us down at times. You guys are great cheer leaders, as well as welcome 2x4 swingers when needed.

I received a text from the w asking if I could watch my youngest two during her week because she is going out of town...I guess I have picked the rope back up a bit, because I now have the wonders. The who, what, where kind of wonders. I will continue to try and drop the rope again and might have to post a bit more often for some much needed 2x4's. I welcome them from most of you guys.

I pray that you all had a good Christmas and that many miracles flowed your ways.

I'm sure I will have more to come, but until then...Happy New Year!!!