Right before I was about to hit the bed and play some silly game on the ipad, you get my eyes all puffy and red... now how am I supposed to level up? Wont be able to see the screen well, but that's okay, I need to rest these eyes anyways.
Its so sad how the people we love can show this other side of themselves. Growing up, I've seen couples separate and from the outside looking in, they looked perfectly fine. But having this happen first hand, there's so much devastation.
You may not feel like you have the strength now, but you're strong and you have a good heart. You're not weak and you will endure. You have a lot going on and this by itself is overwhelming. Give yourself some time. Allow yourself some time and space to grieve.
And remember, no blame games, this even means no blaming yourself. It's your H fault for turning into what he is. Makes me want to punch him in the face for saying that to your Daughter, much (()) to her. I wouldn't worry about H. He could be spending the rest of his life trying to get back the good life he had with you. Don't waste your energy on him. Keep that focus where it needs to be on you and your daughter. Wishing you much happiness and peace into the new year.
H 49 , W 47 T 23, M 17 S11, S5 BD: 7/18 IHS: 7/18 - 3/19 Physically Separated: 3/19-4/19 Piecing: 4/19 - Current
