Feeling lost, scared and wanting to fix this. Pt 3

[SoTorn]

What is the reason for an apology letter? I had written a letter to my wife a while back after the ILYBDLYAM speech, before I confirmed A. I honestly took it back because I was being gaslighted badly and was under the assumption that it was all my fault that she was doing what she was doing, even though in the back of my mind I knew it wasnt me.

I would like to write her another, not to try and R, but to truly see if she can understand that I realize my mistakes of the past.