Christmas was nice. Woke up with the kids, W made breakfast. We opened presents with them. Boys loved it, we took lots of pics. None of us all together. That was ok. My S10 wanted to get mom a gift and he chose some perfume and I helped him pick out some house shoes for her. The youngest one came in study with her prior to Christmas asking me what I wanted, told him candy and he was telling me that's not a gift, I said for me since I've been working out it will be. She got me an I watch. Haven't opened it. Thinking will let her know I can't accept it but it doesn't matter to bring it up. I don't initiate on other stuff so won't on this. Just gonna g to leave it in a box in a drawer.
She left on Christmas to attend mass with the kids and see her family who all went together to the cemetery afterwards for her dad who passed away on Christmas Day. She did ask me if I wanted the go and I said my usual no thank you. When she was out I drove out to where she is getting the new house built. I checked apartments in the area. Found some.
I've been thinking about custody lately. Will get with attorney in January. 50/50 will be very hard due to W and I planned I was going to look for new job in area, probably less paying one to be closer to kids. This was before BD. If I move out there it could add another hour to my commute. Worried about custody. It is feasible to live in between work and her place but I don't know what that will look like with custody.
Last night she said she was dropping kids off at her brothers and spending a night there so her relatives can watch them as she goes to work these next two days. Little suspicious but nothing I can do but let it roll off like water on a ducks back.
Going thru ww threads a second time and also rereading DR. Things are popping out at me more now.
H 49 , W 47 T 23, M 17 S11, S5 BD: 7/18 IHS: 7/18 - 3/19 Physically Separated: 3/19-4/19 Piecing: 4/19 - Current
