Letting Go. Detaching. Done Engaging.

[Did]

I’ve been in IC basically the whole separation although I like the new ic best. I’ve wanted her pretty consistently I just am ignoring her now. Not giving in to that desire. I also have been full of love the whole time I was giving gifts and volunteering at an animal sanctuary so we could potentially spend time there early on. Pathetic I know.

I also know I have non negotiables like being emotionally unavailable inconsistent selfish manipulative. But I still love her. Also I’ve accepted love is not enough. She has to want to work on herself and our relationship. So if she doesn’t commit to that by February 1 it’s over.