Ellie, Just to back up a few posts, I totally understand that you are the rock. My H has told me (and recently) that I am his stability. Yes, I too want to run, breakdown, scream,etc.
One of the other things I hear from him is that I'm "taking over." Ex: this was last said a week ago. When we returned from a week long ride, I wrote down all the supplies that need to be bought on a list. I mentioned, key word mentioned, that I could take the list to the store if he wanted me to get the supplies. I was told I was taking over.
I think JJ is on to something!!
When you can't make a decision because you are torn between your heart and your head, listen to the half with the brain.