Just focus on bettering yourself. That is what I am doing. I have had a real shift of mentality lately wherein I am very literal when I say "My goal for myself is XXX and this will improve XXX for me". The little voice in my head is no longer screaming at me "will this make her change? Will this make her look at you differently? Will this make her stop her A and come back?
The last big decision I am having a very hard time with is moving out. Some say stay IHS because it shows I am strong, some say move out because I will never heal. I am healing, but yes much slower if I stay, but me staying is keeping consistency for the kids at a bare minimum. WW and I are not fighting. Yes there is still an awkward tension in the air when we are both home. I do a great job of NC even when she is home. If WW asks me something I will answer her, but other than that I have kept it to just hi when I see her. I don't tell her bye though.
WW likes to say "good morning" etc. I just say "hi".
M:16 T:21 H(me) 38 WW: 38 S11 D16 D19 Red Flags of A: March 2018 ILYBNILWY: August 4, 2018 Moved out of MBR: September 24, 2018 BD/Confirmation of A: October 31, 2018 D Filed: March 27, 2019
