I was advised on the board to stay in the house, both because of legalities, but also because of the fact that she created the mess, she is then the one who leaves.
I, Well unfortunately when you cherry pick which advice to follow at the time the advice was given, it was most likely the correct thing to do.
Staying in the martial home and master bedroom is a sign of strength. However, when you have the meltdown/setback like you had on your birthday that symbolic stance goes right out the window.
Now your'e just living in an extremely toxic environment that is not healthy for you or your children.
