if you aren't making mistakes, it's because you aren't trying. You learn from your mistakes, you don't beat yourself up over them.
Your self esteem is down? Ha! That's easy to fix, because it only depends on you!!!! Fix it!
As for you not "deserving" this...I have always hated the word "deserve". Remember this phrase "If it is to be, then it is up to me". Nobody deserves anything. On The Wire, and Unforgiven, there was a quote "Deserve's got nothing to do with it". I always loved that line.
Tomorrow will be what you make of it, do you want to hurt? Or will you employ a PMA and a mindset that you will commit to making your life better?
H 34 W 29 BD 3/12/18 Divorce Busted Spring 19
It is not things that bother us, but the stories we tell ourselves about things.
