Did I know it's hard man, it is. And it just [censored].
But I think you are still hoping that she is going to try hard to get you back any day now. You've only been going NC for like a week. She hasn't seen any consistency yet.
Time will tell. In the meantime, I hope you truly enjoy your life. And work on yourself to become even better. Don't backslide on any of those hard earned changes. Merry Christmas man.
H 34 W 29 BD 3/12/18 Divorce Busted Spring 19
It is not things that bother us, but the stories we tell ourselves about things.