Wife in MLC, I think

[LB55]

Man this is just the worst time of year for all this. I am not permitted to contact my W or my kids right now or risk being put in jail. I am staying with my sister for the holidays, which I am thankful for, because I had to stay in a hotel the first couple days of being 'home' and that adds up in a hurry.

It is just so hard, I miss my kids and my life so much. She has taken everything from me, and I can't do anything right now. I just break down at the littlest thing, and I have to go hide for a while to get away. It is embarrassing but I cannot keep my emotions in check right now.

I had to leave the room yesterday, W had my kids call my sister on FaceTime to talk with her, my brother in law, their kids, my parents, and I couldn't deal with having to hide and just listen. She is so cruel and hurtful to me, and acts like everything is so great at their place, all her new friends are over, all 1 of them(divorced mom who is driving this whole thing), and her parents, who only have her side of the story and would like to see me thrown in jail. I get to see my kids for 2 hours on Thursday with her parents providing oversight to make sure I don't abuse them or say anything bad about my W. Never thought I would be here, at this point in my life, just fighting for the opportunity to take my kids out for lunch.

I found out on Friday that my S11 never got his birthday gift from me, even though it was delivered. She took it and didn't give it to him to try and make him angry with me for forgetting him. So sad, she is leaving such a wake of destruction and she is barely getting started. I am trying to keep my mind off of it, but it is just so hard, especially at this time of year.