Hello all, merry Christmas to everyone! I wanted to vent/give an update on my sitch and see what you all think.
I did meet with her about 4-5 days ago. She seemed normal on the phone, so I thought she would be in a good mood to have a civil conversation. I was completely wrong. When I got there, she immediately started recalling things from the past, saying I ruined her life, that she is miserable thanks to me and that all she wants to get D and never see or hear from me again. Just extremely angry and raging at me. I felt myself getting angry as well so I told her that I couldn’t continue this convo and I left.
She started calling and texting me, I ignored. Then her texts went from angry to apologizing for getting my hopes up about R and that she would do anything to help me feel better. Then (since I kept ignoring) she went back to anger and saying hateful things so I blocked her.
I still have her blocked and haven’t heard anything from her. Listening to all the things I did wrong in the marriage still hurts me, we both made mistakes but it’s hard to listen to. I felt bad after this. Not being in contact with her since then has made things easier for me and I feel much better.
I do realize that this is most likely leading towards D. But I don’t understand how can she be so angry towards me?? I think she is suffering economically so maybe that is fueling her rage towards me?
Thanks for reading this, and I’d appreciate any comments or suggestions. Plan for now is NC and keep her blocked. I need to heal and when she contacts me she stirs everything up and I can’t have that.
