Letting Go. Detaching. Done Engaging.

[Did]

Thanks ovr appreciate the dialogue. Yea I’m definitely tired of making mistakes and going to talk to her a week or two ago when she said she missed me so much was another one. I should of played hard to get a bit and I should know this sht by now.

I guess she’s having a hard time but she doesn’t act like it. She doesn’t show it to me much. And when she has in the past I’ve swooped right in on my white horse to rescue her. And not let her feel the consequences of her actions, sense of loss etc. I won’t be making those mistakes again.

You’re also right on not believing what they say and statements meaning the exact opposite. Months ago before we slept together she was telling me she hadn’t been dating or hadn’t been with anyone and that was completely false. Why do I want to be with this woman who has straight up lied. And says it’s because we’re separated and it’s not my business. Who has said she’s inconsistent and feels like she deserves to be selfish. Is my self worth that low. Or is it just because I keep paying the highlight reel of our relationship instead of the documentary. I know a big piece is being with D4 consistently.

One thing I am 100% sure of is I need to be ok with moving on without her. Whether I feel consistent in that or not it is the likely outcome and it is the only way she will potentially change her mind and want to commit. So either way I need to get back to DB for me.

Heading home to be with family 90 min drive. Packing DR and Nmmng.

I don’t have plans for New Years maybe I’ll see if I can make any or just have D4 and enjoy the time with her.

Thanks for the support