Thank you for your insight, V. Shift is my mindset heading into 2019.
O, I hear you on me being bitter and angry. And I would be fool to deny it.
As I was driving back from the store earlier, I reflected on what you said about your dad being old and bitter because his perception was that it was his Exs' fault that the divorce happened and he is cynical. And I don't want to be that guy. No body likes that guy. Everybody loves the guy who I am and can continually to be. I reflected further on my angry actions and behaviors that lead to BD. Even as recently as last week when I talked angrily to my WW for a situation she had no control of in that instance, I still gave off the vibe that I am directly angry with her. And no matter how many times I said that I was not angry at her, my actions said otherwise.
I am realizing more about what was said about the gift of time. I have time to continue to shift my thinking and actions. The more time passes, the more I learn about my shortcomings and the processes to overcome them.
If by some miracle in the last 5 months WW and I reconciled, we would be S not long after. I truly believe that.
I still lash out in pain and emotion especially as WW continues to do WW things. Maybe these another tests? Another lesson to learn about controlling anger? Setting boundaries? Detaching?
