Thank you for taking the time to comment on my post.
This was back in 2013, I had only known her a year at this stage. We were in a LDR, as she lived in another country.
I'm not sure what we were back then, but in Jan 2013, she basically said she wanted to be alone as she was feeling down and depressed. It hurt at the time, however, I hadn't spent much time with her physically, as we were far away.
She stopped talking to me for all those months. Then months later around June/July 2013, I found out she was in a relationship with a guy in her country, soon she started messaging me again saying she missed me and loved me etc, I kept my distance and she pursued more. She then moved to my country in 2014, as she wanted to spend her life with me and made up her mind. At that time, I forgave her, as I felt maybe she was just young and lonely, I wasn't in her country, the thought of our future might not have been realistic. When she did move over, I took it that she was very serious about me.
I have no idea is NC making a difference. I'm doing it for my sanity, off social media, whatsapp etc. I'm protecting my heart, as it's in pieces.
I went Christmas shopping today with my parents. All the Christmas songs playing made me very emotional, where i had tears in my eyes in the shops. It's so embarrassing, but I really can' help it.
All i want for Christmas is... the hurt to disappear.
BH: 36 WW:33 M: 2 Relationship: 6 years. Dday: Aug 2018 0 1st mention of D: 30/09, 2nd Mention 17/02/2019 LRT: Oct 2018 WW & AP: EA & PA since June 2018 (Moved country and in with AP Feb 2019)
