It's 3 am... Just back from a few drinks with old mates. Good guys, they all are behind me and supporting me during this time. They don't want me to get back with WW, if she ever comes back.
Part of me would love at least get the opportunity to talk and have WW listen to me and see and hear the pain she caused me. I don't think it matters, as right now I'm nothing to her. Over 2 months of NC, nothing.
My healing is coming from self-reflection and LONG nights of bad dreams and obsessive thoughts.
I will never understand why you treated me this way and stuck a knife in your husbands back when all I wanted was to see you happy with me. All i wanted was someone who i could share my life with and trust.
I guess you were not that person.
I guess I'm too trusting with my heart.
I guess I was....wrong.
BH: 36 WW:33 M: 2 Relationship: 6 years. Dday: Aug 2018 0 1st mention of D: 30/09, 2nd Mention 17/02/2019 LRT: Oct 2018 WW & AP: EA & PA since June 2018 (Moved country and in with AP Feb 2019)
