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Journaling....

WW told me 10 days ago (via text) that the initial pleadings she drew up were in a drawer in our MH and that 'if I want to get the process started, that's where they are and I need to sign the Certificate of Service.' (this was in response to me expressing my desire that if the end game is her moving out, I'd rather she do it as soon as possible rather than waiting around) I didn't respond to that text right away. Later on in the day, I had a weak moment and asked her if she wanted me to sign it so she could file right away. I said I wanted her thoughts and feelings on this. I told her this is her decision, not mine, but I won't stand in the way anymore.

Not sure if that would be considered pursuit or not, but on the flip side, I haven't heard boo from her since. She never responded to my text and she hasn't said anything more about it in the meantime.

Yesterday I was out of town and took the document with me to have notarized. I didn't want to do it in town for probably some weak and stupid reasons. I didn't want anyone knowing my business yet.....So, I signed the document and had it notarized and put it right back in the drawer when I got home. I'm not telling her that I did it. The initial text from 10 days ago went on to say that I could scan and email them to her and she would file them. That would require me doing some work toward getting a D IMO. I'm not going to do that. If she wants to file, she can either respond to my inquiry from 10 days ago or if she goes into the drawer to look at the paperwork, she will notice my signature is there and she can take them and file them. The ball is in her court. I didn't stand in the way by not signing, but I'm also not actively engaged in getting it filed either.

Now, this morning, I went to the drawer to see if the papers were still in there and they are gone. I think she was tidying up the surrounding area and put some more stuff in the drawer that was left out and noticed them. She must have them. I must not be as detached as I thought I was because now I have an uneasy feeling. I'm not spiraling out of control or anything, just an uneasy feeling of anticipation to see when the guillotine will be dropped on my neck.