13 years and 2 kids pt. 3.

[Hurt213]

Journaling:

So yesterday, I went to church with D4 and S1, and had a good time. Afterwards I had to go do the last Christmas shopping, so I wanted to drop off kids in the daycare so I could be as quick about it as possible. S1 just ran in and had a ball, however D4 began to shake and cry, and I tried to tell her, that I wouldn't be long. She agreed to everything I said, and said it was okay that I had to go, however her body language told me a completely different story, and I am really focused on her well being presently, because im sure she is reacting to our situation at home.

I then decided that of course I couldn't leave her there, so she came along. We went to get the presents, and then of all people, we ran into WWs mother in town. D4 was really happy to see her, and well it was fine I guess. I kept it formal and short, but she told me, that WW had been visiting her earlier this week, and she was very very sad looking, and there was no joy in her at all. I told her, that we had to get going, without commenting on what she had said, and wished her a merry christmas. We then drove home, picked up S1 from daycare, and I cleaned the house while the kids played.

Later Voldemort arrived home, and D4 told her, that today we are going to make christmas cookies, and make different types of christmas candy. WW then told her, that she was of course going to be part of that.... I need help setting a boundary regarding her just jumping in on my activities - I know the kids like it, but she doesn't even ask, and yea I feel disrespected.

Later she said, that if I changed my mind, we could write both our names on the gifts for the kids, I just replied "no thank you".

When S1 and D4 were sleeping, I dressed up, and went to a friends house were he had a little social gathering. WW said "Oh, you look so nice", I didn't answer.

Today We sorted presents, and she tries to engage me in conversation, so I have been leaving the room whenever she is present, just to not give her the satisfaction of cake eating. She then came to me, and said that she would love it, if I would attend christmas with her family as well, and if she could join us for church. I said, "no thank you".

She then began packing her bags, because as I already journaled, she is going on a spa sleep over with OM apparently after christmas eve, when I have the kids. It just shocks me, that she is able to run around inviting for christmas and still knowing that she is going with him in less than a week from now - disgusting behavior.

So me and the kids are ready for christmas, and its going to be a lot of fun. She can do whatever the heck she wants, and I am just going to really enjoy this time I have left with the kids 24/7 before we are dividing their time between us.