My WAS - looking help and thanks in advance PART 5

[SoTorn]

Hi everyone,

I've been thinking and reading a bit. I've been getting out the last couple days and evenings and enjoying life. W came home Tues morning to (presumably) get clothes and shower. Prolly wanted to walk past me to see if I'd say anything to her. It woke me up so I got up and left quickly while she was in the shower, I didn't want to see her face.

Then last night I saw she was home so I kept on driving past the house and went to hang with my sister. W texted, asking where I put an earrings box. And then she called twice, and I didn't answer or respond. I'm sure she was wanting to temp check me while looking for these earrings or she's just selfish and her needs must be met immediately. She had stuff everywhere and I just kinda cleaned up and moved her stuff all to one spot clearly so she could have found it.

I got home late last night, she took the TV out of the master and my computer charger and her favorite pillow. Her computer charger has been broken and I told her to get a new one like ten times in the last year. I'll just go get a new one, I'm not talking to her or letting her get under my skin.

I read this over in SoTorn's thread:

"I need to get away from her because I want to get on with my life and I cant tolerate her continued disrespect "

. I feel pretty similar. It's just ridiculous and I'm tired of the rollercoaster.

As Blu and Sia said, I really don't like her lack of commitment, her not owning her own actions, and getting pissed at everyone for having feelings. Only W's feelings matter and I should be happy to just bask in her glow.... My W is a very good looking gal, like all of the women I've dated, but I was drawn to her b/c of how much she cared. She was, sweet, helpful, loving. Keyword there is "was". She isn't that caring person anymore. I'm going to go out and have fun with friends and live a little.

I still feel like that but I don't know if moving out myself is a good idea. I believe its an emotional idea for me because I want to move away from her for hurting me emotionally when I see her. I need to just focus on DB and not worry about what she does. I need to do me. That is what makes me feel better.