Ok got it, no more talking to SIL about that subject.
I got cornered into talking about the D. This morning she called me a couple times and I finally answered. She said that she wants to D and it’s not fair that I’m in the house and she’s in an apartment and she’s broke etc etc. That she knows she’s never coming back to me and that she wants to close this chapter of her life. Started bringing up mistakes I’ve made in the past and recently. Saying that we’ve been separated for almost 5 months and the kids want nothing to do with me if we’re not getting back together. She said that she can’t imagine ever getting back with me, I told her not even two weeks ago you begged me to take you to Canada for the weekend, and that if it wasn’t for that trip that we would probably still be seeing each other. She said that she realized on the trip that she can’t be with me. She wanted me to file for divorce. I told her that I’m not going to do it and that is on her. She asked me what I wanted and why won’t I file. I told her that she knows what I want and that is opposite of divorce so I can’t file. She is extremely angry at me. She said that I make life so hard for her and she regrets the day she met me, at one point she even cried that she was so mad. I told her that I had to go and that was it.
I don’t feel affected emotionally by the convo. It’s surprising how she is so angry at me, I haven’t even talked to her or seen her for almost 2 weeks now. I know it’s her emotional ups and downs.
Right now she sees me in a horrible way, and that I’m the worst person on the planet in her eyes. I just need that switch to flip inside her.
