Determined now as I move forward..

[Dtrmned]

Don't know why, just down a little bit today.
I am enjoying my kids a ton and having fun with them outside of school stuff and the are responding very well.

I guess I'm just down about the holidays. Its very depressing. W still hasn't called to set a time to "discuss" things. I'm sure expects me to be at her beck and call, but that won't happen. Unfortunately there are some things that must be discussed. We still don't have a Christmas schedule set up either! UGH! I'm frustrated. Not like before though when it was more of an angry frustration. This is more of a sad frustration. I just miss my family being together. I miss the fun times. I miss my partner. I know this will blow over and I appreciate everyone investing their time in allowing me to vent.

Work is slow so I have a little more time, but it is spent this week shuttling and hanging with the kids.

No idea what my W is thinking or doing. I think about it from time to time just because we used to be so close. I am not obsessing as I once was about what she is doing or whom she is with. My heart just hurts at the moment.