And it's a little bit unnerving that I don't have this part of the script planned out.
Wow, what an insightful sentence. Because when someone is utilizing the forum and DBing there IS a bit of script to follow. I guess when we're at our most vulnerable we really need the support of other people suggesting what we should do and how to handle the range of emotions and actions. But now you're back on your own making your own decisions that we really can't advise you on, because this part is very personal to only you.
Whatever your future holds between you and your XW I thank you for sharing your process that you're going through now. You really are on the "other side" of it in the sense that you are not hopping back into the R as it used to be once-upon-a-time. You'd be defining a new R and deciding if that works for you. I'm sure it's very difficult in a lot of ways but hearing you really carefully consider what is important to you and sort through your feelings for your XW (now GF? I dunno!) in real-time is amazing.
