LBS dealing with WW (part 6)

[Joe2017]

Yail:
Yep, I definitely need to work on these emotions. The insecurities I had about myself as they related to how I used to compare myself to OM I worked through with GAL. I thought maybe I was less attractive than OM, so I hit the gym. I started running again. I dropped a lot of weight. I started to dress better. As a result I became more confident about myself, which in turn made me more attractive to women. And being with other women made me even more confident. It was an effective combo.

But as it relates to my ex-wife? I took a lot of those feelings and just hid them. I never thought I'd have to talk to her again about our dog, so that whole range of dog emotions is back. I never thought she'd ever ask me to help her with my opinions regarding S15 again, but here I am dealing with those feelings. I never EVER thought she'd ever ask me about getting married and now the topic has come up like 4 times. And it's a little bit unnerving that I don't have this part of the script planned out.

Jim:
Thanks for your kind words. I appreciate them a lot. I have no idea where this R is going to go from here. Either one of us could decide it's not worth it and bail at any time. But I think that given the circumstances, at this moment in time we'd both regret not trying to reconcile, so we really just have to give it a shot.

I am dealing with a lot of personal jealousy issues. I am jealous that she was with two guys after D. But to be honest, I was with girls post D, so I can't hold that against her at all. But I do. It's probably because I was the LBS. I know I have to get over it, and I'm working on it. One day at a time, I guess.