I do feel myself getting stronger each day and am accepting the fact that it’s over once again. I am in a much better place then I was a week ago. I am at the point once again when talking to her, I can be 100% indifferent and act like I don’t care what she says or does. Ive got that under control. I know right now she could tell me she’s never coming back/has another man/filed for divorce/hates my guts, literally anything, and I’d be completely fine with listening to it. Last week I’d be destroyed hearing that but not now.
From what I’ve seen, she switches back and forth but not every 5 minutes (at least not in front of me). It’s more of two weeks yes, one-two weeks no type of deal.
With all of that said, I am ok if it’s truly over. But, if there really is a chance, I don’t want to make any more mistakes. That’s why I come here for help because I don’t want to dig myself further in the hole. I am trying to be careful and play my cards right to draw her back and not screw it up again. I think this morning she was expecting me to beg and plead about the divorce so I felt like not falling into was the right thing and that’s the advice I was given. You guys are amazing!!
