One month. I made it one month without breaking down. Two months since I have not slept well in consecutive days.
The last three days have been miserable. More truths coming to light, more failed temp checks, and more forcing myself to live through this mess.
I went through burned's thread and read amoafwl's post of WW running on pure emotion. Then I ask myself, "What if she is not a WW? What if this was an agreed upon split?" Then I go back and recall clearly that it was supposed to be a trial, with me never agreeing to the no dating part. I even tried to date against my will and it felt so wrong.
W is a WW. That was told by many of the veterans here.
I'm running on auto-pilot. I don't have GAL plans tonight, and I don't want to come home. This place is a fortress.
