Sorry to have put you in the spotlight with my opinion that you were stuck. From.experience I am sure you will soon be unstuck. It often just takes something small to shift our mindsets and perspectives. That is your key. Find it. Someday soon you will hear something, read something or see something and it will light a spark under you and you will know your path. I am not talking about your R/M, without a catalyst beyond you that will be slow to change. You know that so take your time to concentrate on you.

Best wishes

R 25 years
M 14 years
S11 & S13
Working on it alone since Oct 2014
M in trouble a lot earlier (~2 years)
Feb 2016. 1st R chat in a yr.
Next R chat Aug'17
Still together