W was at church today. Took pictures with our nieces. Ignored me... Part of the Thanksgiving is to not participate if you have a grudge. You are supposed to go and make amends before going through with it. So much for her beliefs. Really makes me wonder what is going on with her. Detach Turbine detach. Why I had any expectations...
Maybe this is a test from God. Test from her.... I need to flip this... or something...
Except I lost ground again. Held it together in church but started falling apart in the parking lot. Made it to the car before completely loosing it. Whiskey Tango....
Going to the gym tonight I believe.
Will be thinking about this again. I want to but... is this still worth fighting for? I am the only one that can decide that. One session with the personal trainer... would be really weak to cave now. What does that say about my commitment and all the stuff I wrote before... smh...
The holidays have always been a contentious time for us... so rarely felt the "holiday spirit" since we have been married. Since I am trying to return maybe I shouldn't even care...
Likely going to younger daughter's for the 25th. Go see a movie with them. Marry Poppins... Aquaman... ???... we'll see.
H (me) 56 ; W 54 ; M 32 ; D 32 ; D 30 ; S 21 ; Grandkids: 12, 11, 10, 8, 1
