13 years and 2 kids pt. 3.

[Hurt213]

LH,

Thank you very much! You are absolutely right. I have been disrespected in ways I could never imagine, and every freakin logical emotion in me says: What the heck, how are you putting up with this, what do you expect will happen. STXW will NEVER see you with eyes of respect as long as she is allowed to do this to you, so why do you let her..

Fact is, im scared. I scared for me, I am scared for my kids, and its a bad excuse. I have realized, and probably have known for a while now. That we are done in this situation. That she has made a choice to dissolve, and follow a path that includes the kids, but I am not invited on this ride. I guess I have been sticking around, trying to see if a ticket should fly my way, but its unworthy.

My DB at this time consists of being a good father, and trying to figure out how to get the best deal for me and my kids, to have as much time together as possible. I am being respectful as long as we don't talk about OM activities or her affair schedule. Then I simply tell her how disrespectful it is, and walk away. I am done taking her bait, and I am done with her temp-checks.

Me and WW basically need to end, if we are ever to make a new beginning - I don't even now if that is possible anymore, with her being so deep and burning so many bridges. The fact that I mentioned yesterday: She spending more money on a gift for OM she has been with for 3 months, than for her children combined for christmas, just makes me really wonder what values she possess, and it scares me that she gets to have my kids in this current state.

After our talk yesterday, when I asked / told her straight up, that it would be suitable, and a good idea for her to move out (she accepted to leave from yesterday until tuesday), she texted me this afternoon and said she would be coming home. She came home 2 hours ago. I told her yesterday all I had to say, so I didn't argue with her, I kept my cool and stayed silent. I also have a fever and a cold, so I really don't have the energy. The kids were stoked to see mommy, and she said I should go to bed, because I looked really bad. She then asked if I needed anything. I said "No thank you". That is the only thing I have said to her. Now I am in MBR, watching a movie, kids are sleeping, and she is in living room texting vividly. She will be leaving early tomorrow morning. I hope the house sells soon, it will be very healthy for all of us.

/h