Is this karma coming back to get me? God punishing me for what I have done in the past?
We have bad stuff going on all around us, and sometimes we have bad stuff happening to us. When we are suffering, it does not necessarily mean that God is administering punishment directly to us.
God has a plan for everyone. His plan is perfect, but we are imperfect beings. He created us with free volition. We can be very rebellious and disobedient children. Sometimes we choose to step outside of His perfect will/plan for our lives. He also set up certain laws of nature, divine institutions (such as M), etc. When we have a spouse that is not living according to God's laws of nature, or they are not respecting His divine institutions, then that spouse will face consequences.....in the way & time God sees fit. The faithful spouse and the children suffer.....but not b/c God is punishing them. They suffer in the fallout of the unfaithful spouse/parent decisions. You might say it is suffering by association.
Seems to me, your suffering has come from your WW's choices...….rather than from God. I'm just crazy enough to believe when God has to discipline one of His children, they have a pretty good idea why.
((Hugs))
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
