Here's a quick(ish, okay - not quick at all) update:
This is my first week with S3 being out of the house. I was not prepared for the emotions. S14 is staying with me because it's closer to his school (his choice), so I haven't completely lost it. It's full blown depression this week - I'm typically up early and getting things done, but I haven't gotten up until the last minute to get to work on time. My evening are unproductive and I feel like I have no time, even though I have more than I'm used to. My whole routine has gone down the drain and I'm struggling to pull myself together.
The only positive, if you can call it that, is that my W has decided to forfeit her portion of the equity in the home and remove her name from the title. It's a huge financial positive, but this is a big sign of just how out-the-door she is. The stress of work, school, kids, pets, separating the finances, finalizing the separation/divorce agreement, and taking care of the house solo is all building up. My normal coping mechanisms are failing me and I haven't done a single GAL thing for myself.
I took S14 out to dinner earlier in the week which was nice, but I topped off the night by hand feeding my wife the proverbial cake by dropping off stuff for S3 where she was staying, which happened to be OM's house. I felt pressured to do it because S14 needed something he left there a while ago, but I was a wreck for a couple hours afterword (not crying, just lethargic/spaced out). I decided in that moment to not willingly let her eat cake anymore.
All in all, a few steps back this week. GAL tonight with a work function and gonna take the kids out with a buddy and his kid. W is running into issues getting the mortgage finalized on her new place because we don't have a legal agreement yet - so we need to get that straightened out along with a few bills. I really need to build a routine, but I need to solidify some goals and create action plans before I get there.
