Determined now as I move forward..

[Dtrmned]

Updating.
It's Friday and I am very excited to pick up my kids and have them for this next week!

Not much interaction with my W this week.

We texted a couple of times and spoke once. She is VERY tired from the week of running the kids and she did her best to bait me in a few times to argue. I never took the bait. I only spoke to her regarding a few financial things that were imminent and had to be done. She did take her stance on "I can't pay that" and I asked why not since I know for a fact she has a LOT of cash from cashing out everything she has. Her response was that "its none of my business". I let it go. She asked for us to meet up next week since she wants to split our stuff up. I said "ok" let's schedule a time so we can discuss everything since there is lots to discuss. She responded back and made an underhanded jab at me. I again, did not respond and let it go. Just skimmed over it and answered the questions that were asked as briefly as possible.

When we spoke yesterday, she said that "we are all just so exhausted from the week and running on fumes!". I tried to validate that "I bet its been a rough week" since I know they had a lot of running to do. But again, this is her choice and I often wonder (not my problem) how she is going to fit a job in there when her money runs out in a few months.

Decent GAL week. Worked out, work, 2 lunches and 2 dinners out with friends and 1 dinner out by myself. House is clean. A few more decorations to be put up and a bunch of baking this weekend. I'm going to take the kids shopping, give them a little (just a little) money so THEY can purchase a gift for their mother. If this is wrong, please let me know. This is not from me. I am not picking it out. I am merely providing a little capital.

I haven't seen her in a week. Briefly saw her last Saturday as they stopped by to pick something up. I do miss her. And my family in the same home. I don't miss the tension and long periods of awkward silence. I am db'ing by going as dim as I can outside of the kids. I have only initiated one text this week and that is the one regarding the issues that needed immediate attention. Brief and to the point. She is playing her game as well. I love it when I realize this part. She waits her certain amount of time prior to responding. Totally textbook on her end.

I don't know how the holidays will work out. One of the things we are discussing next week. Christmas, New Year's and a kid's birthday in between so lots to figure out for everyone.

No idea how she is doing other than exhausted. Hopefully she is thinking and who knows what her agenda is for our meet up next week. For me, I will listen, validate and discuss only the financial and custody arrangements. No R talk, no blame, nothing like that at all. I have to work up for that one, but I know I can do it!

Peace to all. For a few brief moments yesterday while stuck in traffic on the freeway, listened to some of my favorite Christmas songs and caught a little Christmas spirit!

Looking forward to my kids being HOME!!