Dealing with a WW Pt3

[SoTorn]

So WW is home now from her "work" trip. I spent the evening cleaning the house with D16 and S11 because the kids are super messy. Made sure it was nice and clean before bed.

WW came home last night and everyone was in bed. Only the dogs were awake to greet her at the door. In the past S11 and I would stay up and wait for her, provided I didn't drop her off at the airport. I no longer do either.

I was having a nightmare last night. Sometimes I get loud in my sleep when I have a nightmare. My WW used to wake me up right away by putting her hand on my chest, which was very comforting. Now that I sleep alone the nightmares just play out until I wake myself up.

WW's room is right above MBR. I guess WW heard me having a nightmare so I got a random text at about 3AM from her asking "what were you dreaming about? Were you having a bad dream?"

I decided to tell her what I was dreaming about. I sent a short text back saying that I now have dreams about her being intimate with another man and that it was upsetting. I told her the truth. WW didn't respond of course.

I don't really feel that was pursuing or anything. I haven't really had any sort of chance to tell her how what she did affected me, so I made the choice to go ahead and let her know what was going on last night. Fortunately the nightmares have gotten further and further apart. Nightmares were nightly for a couple of weeks after she moved upstairs and for a couple more weeks after BD.

I sleep with the doors locked now and I don't come out of my room until I am dressed and ready to rock and roll for the day. When I came out of the room WW was standing in the kitchen. WW looked bad. WW's eyes were solid bloodshot red like if she had been crying. WW blurted out a very awkward "hi". Like one of those "hi's" when someone is expecting you to greet them first and you don't.

I responded with a "hi" as well but that's it. I finished getting ready and getting my stuff for work. I told S11 goodbye, have a great day, ILY and gave him a hug. Then I left, without another word to WW, just as I have been for a while now.

Usually, when WW comes home from her "work" outings I would get very sad when I see her, or angry, or resentful. This morning when I saw her I honestly felt nothing. I felt indifferent to her. It felt as she was just some person in my house that didn't belong there.