Brave Little Gerda, So Chilled She Could Not Speak

[marina7]

Gerda,

Wow, crying as I read your post.

I can't imagine the pain your feeling for
your child.

What works for me is, just remind S
Am here S for you.

There's a new movie coming out
"Ben is back"
Just watching the trailer has me
In tears. It shows the love of a mother.

I need to prepare myself as I see s10
Angry, shuts Down, tells me
I don't wanna feel
Feeling get you in trouble

I must just listen when s10 says this
in reality I want s10 to speak up say
W is hurting me or something.

S10 doesn't say nothing.
My therapist said remind
S 10 am here am fighting for you.

But there are challenges for us
LBS kids.

Is like a cycle repeating itself
And I can't protect them.
The law is horrible for these kids

I have spoken up, I have emailed
100's of emails, and nothing.

Even when s9 was hurt by W
I thought they would protect
All kids I was told well we visited
I ask ok did you speak with s10
Yes he says he is ok.
Was W there Yes.

Ummmm hello why ask a child
In front of the abuser is W also
Hurting you.
Hello my s is not going to talk


I simply don't understand the system
Especially in USA it's horrible

I am like you I am holding
On to God and ask him
Please protect my 3 kids.

I have gave God my children's

You now have given s to God
Now send s a text just reminding
S am here.

S will remember this Why I know
My step mom just took a step back
And always reminding me as a child am
Here. When I was old enough step mom
I reached out too and here we are 20 plus years
Later. That's my mommy to everyone
I introduce mom too and she knows it.

Till this day she was also my safety person
and still is.