I'm frustrated at myself. I am frustrated that I am continuing to let W cake eat and feel like I am placating her when she talks about tackling the incoming debt together, figuring out plans for the house, D4 education, and plans for when I go on dates. I strongly feel that this is ALL temp checking. All I do is acknowledge the conversation and sometimes unknowingly temp check back.
I really want to convey that it is not about W and I anymore. I want to address that and make it clear on what I am thinking and where I stand without coming across like a jerk. I want to tell her that it is messed up that we are "no longer romantic" but still somehow obligated to do the business end of the stuff like paying the bills, mortgage, coordinate D4 stuff, and so on. I am tempted to just tell to get out of the house, but I cannot express that without sounding angry. I want to continue to set boundaries but not do it from emotions. I need to go through my thread history and look at the advice I was given on enforcing those boundaries because my frustration at her WWness is mounting. I really do not want to blow it up in front of her face.
Key holidays and celebration dates are coming up and I am going to keep it as cordial as possible but I will not be acknowledging dates like our W anniversary and V-day. I am not even sure I want to acknowledge her b-day. I may have D4 pick a gift and give it to her that way. But that's the extent I am willing to go to.
