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That is because you are so utterly starved for attention from her. You may have seen me say this before but often the LBS will first try to "nice" the WAS back, then when that doesn't work they'll try to "mean" them back (this is a particularly a problem with men that have NGS). They are just so desperate for attention that they don't even care if it's positive or negative as long as it's SOMETHING. I doubt I need to explain to you why this is a problem! Work on that GAL, and keep in mind that attention is what YOU want, and at this time everything needs to be about what SHE wants.

Yep, I see that clearly. And I know it's counterproductive to feel that way, I do. She wants to know associate with my whatsoever and wants time and space away from me and I am wanting the opposite. Time to forget what I want and keep in mind what she wants. Once again, I'm sacrificing my needs for hers but in the long run the needs I have right now aren't beneficial to my overall growth detachment or beneficial to her finding her way back IF that would ever happen.

Not gonna lie, the lack of any intimacy for me is starting to bother me.

Well don't be too anxious to cross that bridge. When I started getting intimate with other women it opened a whole new set of struggles. I had never had sexual issues in my life, but being intimate with someone else after 25 years just felt so strange and wrong. I don't know how WAS's can have affairs and not be eaten alive with guilt and remorse, I struggled with it even though my ex had already dumped me and moved out! It took months for me to get comfortable being with someone else. The sexual gratification part is easy, the emotional and psychological side is not.

Yep, very good point. The thought of even going out on a date just seems so scary and awkward at this point let alone anything more. It's been SO long since I've done any of that but I suppose over time, like you said, it'll get more comfortable. Face your fears, right?

I'm with you on the affairs thing. I can't imagine myself doing something like that. There's no way I could ever go through with it if the opportunity presented itself. I, too, would be eaten alive with guilt and remorse.