Just signed the D paperwork and sent it over to my A. My STBX’s A will be e-filing, so there is potential this will all be done by the end of the year, which would be ideal for a clean slate in 2019 as well as financial savings by not having to file M but separate for taxes in 2019.
Signing the paperwork had no impact on me. Felt like I was signing any other document. Guess I’ve finally dropped the rope, and man, does it feel good. Confidence and self-esteem is back and higher than before BD. Brighter days are ahead for me. My STBX, however, will be a different story. I don’t expect an apology or repentance, but there is a part of me that wants her to crash and burn even though I’ve forgiven her. Even if/when she does, I don’t expect to hear about it. I’m going dark and have no interest in keeping up with her life.
I was thinking about moving my thread to the D but not done section of the forum, but I think it would be best for me at this point to just move on. No point in focusing on my W. If she wants to restore our R some day, I may hear her out, but I know I’ll be fine regardless. Thanks to all for the advice! Means the world to me. I’ll stick around the forum to ensure I am continuing to DB and work on my personal growth. If there are any updates on my sitch, I’ll be sure to provide updates, as I want to pay it forward to the many people still going through this traumatic life experience. I’m actually thankful for the experience as sick is that might be to say... I’ve had so much personal growth the last 11 months.
