You said you were young when you were back in Vegas, I'm 49 now and these girls were all in their late 30 and early 40s and we had fun like we were teenagers. I know we can't get out and do that all the time and Vegas is always a party but I have been proving to myself that I can do this alone if I have to. And bigger than that is that there are tons of other good people out there that would be interested in who you are. I think our Ws have lost their way so much and don't have the respect to see that we are still there....maybe just need a reset or something.
I'll be honest the one thing my WW has taught me is that we need to live now. That is what I lost, yeah I have kids and want to have a secure retirement, but what good is that if we don't enjoy the ride. I am still making sure tomorrow is taken care of but living today. My W called 50xs and texted 100x while I was gone for 3.5 days, she heard the women and heard the party....and I didn't care. She was throwing herself at me when I got back but I have taken another step away.
Hang in there as always and at all costs enjoy life. I looked at myself as well and see the NG traits that are a huge issue in a marriage. As I have worked away from that slowly I am seeing the enjoyment that I have wanted out of life whether with or without W.
H-50 W-48 T-19 M -18 S23, S14 BD - 5/9/2018 OM discovered 5/10/2018
In house sep - 8/18/2018 Rope drop 2/15/2019 R'ing since 3/15/2019
