Update I guess. Been a while. I had been basically no contact with her, unless it was about the kids or shared debt/money. Psychiatrist is still working with me to find a medication that she thinks will help me the most.
Last night she had mentioned she wanted to talk to me and so while she picked up the kids I listened to what she had to say. It did not go as I had hoped. But I suppose as I suspected it would.
Basically more of the same. I think she has a lot of healing to go through as well and just inst there.
She said that she doesn't see herself being happy if she were to come back to me. That what I bring to the table isn't attractive to her. My life and what I bring to a relationship is too much work for her, and not something she wants to be a part of.
She cant forget or forgive me for ''abandoning'' her with our second child.
All of our marriage was a waste of time to her. 10 years just thrown out. It was all bad to her. Nothing good came of it. And she cant open herself up to more of that with me. Its all she sees when she looks at me.
The only time she really loved me was when we were dating.
Our sex life was boring for her and she was never satisfied. She did the things she did with other men, because she just wanted to feel loved.
M: 29 W: 28 D: 8 S:1 M: 10 T: 11 BD1: 8//15 (physically separate) Back together: 4/16 BD2: 3/18, physically separate 6/18) Here we are again.
