Dealing with a WW Pt3

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So I spoke with my IC. He suggested that I write WW an email expressing how I am hurt and expressing how I think she feels. IC suggested that I tell WW how I feel in email.

I have done this to an extent in person and through text. What would be the value of doing this? I already have a constant urge to email/text her. I stop myself because I feel that is pursuit.

I am still considering whether or not to move out. IHS hurts badly. Watching my WW walk around like nothing is wrong and acting content being my roommate just makes it that much harder for me to move on emotionally. I feel great when I am out and about GAL. I have stuck to my 180 on how I interact with her at home.

I don't want to move out to punish her. I just want to get away from her at this point. WW is constantly looking for little things like my FB posts etc to get mad at me about and when she finds things she doesnt like she always says something like "you want everyone to hate me, see you don't want to fix this!" WW is constantly trying to find stuff to convince herself that I just want to make her look bad and that I don't want to R.

I am not actively seeking to R. I cannot R with this person. I cannot R with this shell of a woman that used to be my wife. How can I R with someone that can't hold themselves accountable for what they did and truly seek forgiveness? How can I R with someone that is actively speaking and possibly seeing OM? Not going to happen.

At this point I am convinced that my WW simply cannot address her own issues and will not work on herself to make the necessary changes to R. Therefore, I choose to not focus on R or WW. I choose to focus on myself and our children.

I woke up feeling pretty down today. Fortunately I have a great support network at work. Today was our Christmas luncheon with the bosses. We had a great time and some great food. I ate way too much lol.