Well, Just got home from the session with the child psychologist. W went in with a note book full of questions about the kids and that was all she wanted to focus on. Again my assumption is she wanted a quick and easy answer. "Thell the kids this and everything will be fine". The psychologist had other plans, much along the lines of what I was expecting and asked very specific questions about the sitch. I was kind of stuck between a rock and a hard place because I didn't really want to answer but they needed to know. It was much of the same from W, she doesn't want to be with me was her standard answer. Still not really any details as to why. I answered the questions honestly, re affirmed many times that I don't want a divorce but accept her decision. I basically spent the next hour answering questions and listening to W deny things. Even recent events, she was in complete denial. At one point I couldn't take it anymore and actually dug out W's email and read exactly what she wrote and she still denied it. Then we got on the topic of what the plan is. W stuck to her story, we will split everything 50/50 including the kids. He is a wonderful person and an amazing father and will always see them and I would never take them away from him. These are all great things to hear but lets look at reality. Best case 50 percent of the time they are being taken away from me. Realistically with now facing rent in a market with almost 0% rental vacancy and huge rent costs plus child support 3/4 of my pay check is gone. I pretty much have to move out to the distant suburbs. The kids go to private school on the bus, they need to be picked up at a consistent location and now I don't live close. Now I am basically down to a Friday night to Sunday afternoon dad. Guess what that increases child support payments. W just kept dismissing it all and saying that won't happen. She is just completely out of touch with what divorced life with three kids where we live will actually look like. Not much I can do about that, I fully accept my new reality and as bleak as that looks will make the most of it. I always find a way to press on despite what I face and this will be no different. Tough morning but the day goes on. Tonight I get the kids and will have them to keep me busy.
