W doesn’t currently do that a whole lot with me—dressing up in tight yoga pants and workout tops. But I bet she will after maternity leave when she goes back to work and starts working out again. To be fair, though, most women look good in those sorts of things anyway.
I do think we’re at different places though—do I find my wife attractive?
Yeah, I guess—but the sexual rejection, emotional unavailability, possible spiritual 180, and the Sword of Damocles of potential BD’ing in the future really dampers my overall attraction to her. It really, really does. Would I take sex with her? Sure. Would be nice, but would feel like a live-in GF or one-night stand, which sounds really really awful, but then again I’m dealing with a woman who is NOT THE WOMAN I MARRIED (or even married to recently).
What I need to be careful with (and probably one of the graces of all this) is that I see (and know that there are) oodles of really attractive, lovely women out there. That, if she ever goes nuclear with all this, then I can say to myself ‘you know what, this is awful, but I’ll just work on myself and hope for the future.’
