Just keep swimming, I think I can, I think I can part2

[marina7]

Journaling,

Nothing much on this end.

Went to my divorce group and kids group
on Monday's,

I was once that person that thought I
never need therapy or go to groups,

I of course would blame how we are raised
I am Spanish so we are raised we don't
go to therapy or get help.

So I also broke that stigma.
I can see now my kids,
And grandkids kids no longer be pass
Down.

I am raising my kids to know is ok to
not be ok, is ok to ask for help if we need help

And everything else that has been with my family
Drugs, kids having kids, sexual assault and abuse.

I got away from it when I was young. And I remember
Till this day looking back and saying I will not live
Like this. At 17 on my own never did drugs I never been
A drinker. Just wine at parties, and never liked to be
in clubs.

My aunt would say, you are a old soul. I just wanted
to read and fly kites and sit for hours and do Puzzles
At 10yrs old and still do.

Yesterday at church I reflected a lot. How now my
Thinking is alot more clearer.

I remember when bd happened that it felt like I downsized
House and everything that goes with LBS.
Now I see more clearer. It wasn't downsizing it is a
New beginning that God wanted me to start.

Yes times are hard. Bills are piling up. Christmas tree
is empty. Haven't had a decent meal till H invited
us over. But I have managed with 3 kids. And through all
This I know God is here with me.

This morning I open two beautiful gifts, they where my eyes.
Life is short I embrace every moment I can.

I pray that things will get better and I will take it
One day at a time.