Turbine... you are on. I actually am a decent poker player...lol. Spaghetti sounds like a good prize.
Your W's comment about her heart being made of stone reminded me very much of what my H told me. He said that he feels "nothing". I don't know if that is still the case. Certainly it describes his feelings towards me. Makes sense...very hard to hold onto positive feelings for someone that you have lied to and used for four years. You need to justify your choices somehow so telling yourself that person means nothing to you is the easiest way to do it. But I digress... really working on the bitterness aspect of my personality.
I so get where you are at Turbine. You sound like me on my worst days. The good thing is that with consistent effort, my worst days have dwindled significantly in number. I still think of my H a lot but I am slowly starting to see him for who he is and not for who I thought he was. Those two people are very, very different and I'm not convinced my H could become the person I thought he was or even if that person ever even existed.
For the thousandth time... You HAVE to drop the rope. You do not have a choice. Keep a small amount of hope alive but live your life as if she is never coming back. You do not want to be still feeling this way a year from now. Work through it by moving forward. Save yourself. (((Turbine)))
