DB again... too late or last strike

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W sent me a pic of D4 in school outfit. She looks so beautiful. Haven’t responded to the picture. Want to say something but I guess I won’t. Man I miss that connection we had just to joke around and be fun not to mention sexual. Been a few months and that’s starting to get to me.

I did go there yesterday and drop off D4 and had like an hour before work and stayed and played. W seemed to be following me into other rooms and trying to get my attention. Talking about her dreams and sleep patterns. Not trying to read into it. I didn’t say much to her.

Feeling lonely and down worried about holidays. Have an IC appointment with new therapist in 40 min. Then going to D4 school and working out and having her overnight. Just journaling here instead of throwing sht at friends or family or talking to w.