I honestly feel I do not know which way to turn anymore what a horrible place to be sometimes u sit back and the whole situation seems surreal considering this time last year everything was well ok or so I I thought it just goes to show how much can happen in a year really . I’ve never been a person who suffered with anxiety depression any mental illness really it just shows how it can happen to anyone given the right circumstances.i had heard of an mlc but I did not know what I now know .well it’s not just the criser going through it it’s us as well ,you try and muddle through the best you can not knowing what the outcome will be just learning an uncharted road as you go full of twists turns dips and peaks and through it all you ask yourself all the time if what your doing is the right choice because if it doesn’t work out then all that time you’ve used for no avail could of been put to healing yourself if you were to walk away. I must say I have serious concerns as to whether we’ll reconcile if she comes through this I can only wait and see what happens in the future but as it stands right at the moment I’ feel like I’m on a hiding to nothing probably because of today’s exhibition but I suppose it’s just the way this thing goes.unchartered territory ,unknown answers and lots of heartache and pain. my perception of it all when they are being how their being it makes you have thoughts of quitting because at that moment you can only feel ,not hatred but more resignation that this might be how it is from now on and is it worth the fight and pain only to lose at the end anyway. Idon’t know maybe it’s just my feelings at this moment in time but I’ll be strong I’ll s stick with the journey I’m on for now I’ll prey for us both and hope for the best and know that tomorrows another day and should be better than today
