I cannot really explain exactly how I feel right at the moment due to the anxiety I’m feeling due to w and her anger . It started yesterday really because I wouldn’t drop something off for her angry text messages then came forth . I left it alone and the last text I received said she would come in the morning,well, talk about carry it over to the next day she was raging so much anger in there all aimed at me . I honestly cannot get where they think that your expected to do as they want ie drop item off at their beck and call . My anxiety was going through the roof but I kept calm .its funny because for the last few interactions over the last few weeks haven’t been to bad but today I seen her mlc in action again .its strange because you think they’ve moved forward maybe they have but the anger today was as bad as 8 months ago .i know when she’s got the raving hump sits there back to you no eye contact standoffish everything you say there’s a sarcastic comment looking for more ammunition to spew . After a while calms down a bit tells me keeps. Waking up at odd hours which I know really is part of it but you dont dare to try to mention why not worth another row . Ihave been following her mlc now for 8 months or so and I can clearly see the depression the anger all not nice but knowing you can’t say or do anything makes it even harder but I’m learning .i actually had thoughts of throwing in the towel because t it’s probably just my own anger inside it’ll pass .
