God, this feels terrible. I just get the feeling that tonight and tomorrow will be very difficult for me.
I know I shouldn’t ask why, but right now I’m at the point of....why are things like this, what could I have done differently, and when will it get better?
I guess it’s better to bare my heart here than in front of her....but man this is rough. This hurts.
7 years ago it was so exciting.....and now I sometimes feel like we’re 2 ships passing in the middle of the night.
What IC and I talked about was my worry that I could drive her further away from me....and right now this is one of those moments.
It’s stuff like this that really makes me NOT want to be in front of my students tomorrow....and our topic is....matrimony / marriage. Talking about matrimony / marriage on my anniversary when things are rough between the 2 of us.
