Just keep swimming, I think I can, I think I can part2

[marina7]

DnJ,

Thank you, yes when trio's said that, I stood silent. That's one thing I
have done, till this day I never agreed with kids. I usually just listen.

Is it hard Yes but I understand they need to vent.

I must say Yes H made me feel like a teenager at dinner table. But
Thank God for my aunt who was there until she pass over 20yrs ago.
My aunt was a housekeeper but her clients treated my aunt like
Family so when they invited aunt, uncle I always went. My aunt
And uncle where my escape from my crazy family. My aunt was
My only safe place. I wish my bio mom would have let me lived
with my aunt when my aunt offered to take me. My bio mom wasn't
A mom lets just say men's and drugs came first.

So bio mom said no but would allow me to go weekends which I remember
At 10 taken 2 trains and a bus to get to aunt home. And key being under the
Plant. Fridge always full with food and little notes for me. No TV in aunt
Home but lots of Puzzles, News papers and radio I will wait for another
2 or 3 hours till aunt got home. We would make homemade pasta sauce
Homemade Pasta, bread and sometimes uncle was there. My uncle was
Contract architect for United airlines so was away alot. But he was there
We did homemade kites and if weather was good we fly them.

Wow writing this brought some great memories how I miss my aunt.
Aunt was my safety place. I sometimes wonder why did bio mom didn't just
Give me to my aunt.

I will say I have broken that chain for disaster. My bio grandmother wasn't
Good mom, bio mom also then sister also followed bio mom steps
And I took and fought for my niece and nephew, when I seen sister giving
them the life bio mom gave me. I fought hard for d10 and s9 and now they are
My kids.

Yes I lost people, I won't even say Family but I also didn't lose much but
Only chaos. I rather be where I am with my Trios then the chaos.

I still talk with my aunt after 22yrs aunt pass away When I am down
I have her picture next to bed side I take her picture and just talk.
Still feels good. I ask her always I hope am making you proud.

Peacetoday
Yes God has a way. I always know he is there.
Sometimes am in patient but God has his plan.

Trio's woke up talking about H. How nice H is
We played with games.
They couldn't stop talking amongst themselves H home

S10 made us eggs while I watch and made sure not to close to stove.
S10 makes some pretty good eggs and ham. D10 set table and just
Kept saying mom relax we got this.

S9 woke up not feeling well so Dr. Tomorrow his throat hurts bad.
D10 and s9 have huge tonsils it might be time to remove them
Dr recommended last year I felt they to young but this year they have
Had over 3 strep throat.

Now we watching Christmas movies and relaxing.

I hope everyone had a good weekend.